LOVE

Its pretty amazing how love works.
LOVE is just a four letter word, it could fill me up or drains me out.

love changes everything.
one could  pretend to be happy in order to make another person comfortable.
one could stop tearing knowing that there are people who loves you, and you don't feel so alone.
one could feel the warmth given by a complete stranger, that's amazing when you've just met the person and yet he's like the one who knows you thoroughly
one could accept reality when she's being forced to, that's all because of love.

i love my family
i love my sisters
i love my gang
i love myself ! hohoho

geelaa  xD

everywhere.

Turn it inside out so I can see 
The part of you that's drifting over me 
And when I wake you're, you're never there 
But when I sleep you're, you're everywhere 
You're everywhere 

Just tell me how I got this far 
Just tell me why you're here and who you are 
'Cause every time I look 
You're never there 
And every time I sleep 
You're always there 

'Cause you're everywhere to me 
And when I close my eyes it's you I see 
You're everything I know 
That makes me believe 
I'm not alone 
I'm not alone 

I recognize the way you make me feel 
It's hard to think that 
You might not be real 
I sense it now, the water's getting deep 
I try to wash the pain away from me 
Away from me 

'Cause you're everywhere to me 
And when I close my eyes it's you I see 
You're everything I know 
That makes me believe 
I'm not alone 
I'm not alone 

I am not alone 
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh 

And when I touch your hand 
It's then I understand 
The beauty that's within 
It's now that we begin 
You always light my way 
I hope there never comes a day 
No matter where I go 
I always feel you so 

'Cause you're everywhere to me 
And when I close my eyes it's you I see 
You're everything I know 
That makes me believe 
I'm not alone 
'Cause you're everywhere to me 
And when I catch my breath 
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know 
That makes me believe 
I'm not alone 

You're in everyone I see 
So tell me 
Do you see me? 

NOT SO GOOD FRIDAY

Firstly, Happy Bday CHEESIANG.   :) thanks for inviting us over.

Watched source code with ryan eevann. OMG super nice ehh the show! hahaha

met sying n anna for CS's present and then OFF we went town to meet ZY's gang.

i feel awkward and so out of place. its not the usual awkward feeling. now, i get it, the feelin anna felt it most of the time.

i'm quite emotionally unstable. green apples help though! you eat it and your tears just stop flowing. =)

i ate 2 apples today. eew sour but they are my secret pills.

we 3 were awkward at the chalet too. *SIGH. 

i kept thinking that i wanna leave this place but we feel so bad. hahaha.

we went to the beach and had a great talk. :D

bestfriends are just labels, i get it now. labels are for potato chips, not friends.

you build a wall not to keep yourself from the world but to see who's caring enough to break it down for you.

hmm we finally left the chalet place, hugged CS. i don't find it weird, i just think that he's so tired and he should rest more. haha i pity him. ohwells parties are all lidat isnt it.

we walked to 53 bustop and take till kovan and had a cup noodle gathering.  :)

meanwhile, i was sms-ing a guy who is similar to me. its just how amazing when u text that person and the person replied what you kinda expected. because we think alike. he's super emo at the chalet and i'm pretty sure he's not supposed to be that quiet even though he's usually quiet.

he asked me, oh so you actually noticed that i'm not myself today. YEP i feel the sadness in him. hahaha.

i guess we are facing the same thing though. he just wouldnt say.and i wouldnt ask, when he's ready he will say.just like me ^.^ finding someone who is really similar to you is super rare! from my point of view, i must friend him no matter what. i wonder if we will meet again .  hehs.

'geelaa' more green apples pleasee

my star is gone

You weren't just a star that I couldn't reach. You were the whole sky that I could only watch.


EMOz
keeping a distance sounds retarded. its hard but its worth a try.
he reminds me of my primary3 bestfriend.
i mean pri1-pri3 bestfriend. she moved away and we became strangers ):
i didn't know the same thing would happen to me after 11 years.
it makes me feel sad, sad to an extend that everything doesn't seem to interest me.
it took me awhile to realise i can't always be dependent on 1 person.
that's because i will feel attached to the person just like a little kid clinging to his/her mother when first entering kindergarden.
i would say i still have my friends but its not the same anymore, no more special friend that stays right behind me. LAS.G lost it's meaning if it becomes 2 people. anyway, you weren't really into my gang thing. i'm glad that you are freed from this silly childish game.
i don't understand why did you see things so simply, to me the letter was important. to me, you moving out of las was a big thing and you just  LOL =(
i'm pretty sure we can still remain as friends. Who's gonna take the initiative? Me again? :/ How can this friendship last when you're always waiting for my text or sms? You won't talk to me if i don't talk to you.. weird huh.


i'm feeling that its so unfair that i feel that MUCH and you don't even see why i do.
to u it may sound stupid or ridiculous. to me, it means i care in fact i care a lot .
if that's what you want, i shall pretend that nothing happened, it doesn't affect me. 
lets remain as good friends then.
i'm pretty sure you will be fine. who knows about me. i might die halfway.
lead your life and i will lead mine afterwards. lets just cherish the remaining 4 months. 


i will be fine soon i guess. 

LION KING WAS AWESOME

BEAUTIFUL EVENING

trying to find our way /:

 ♥ 

omg.. super beautiful right! hahaha!

it doesnt matter if u bought a good ticket.

last picture of the day. Y so reluctant :(

1 last picture before we take bus home.

had late dinner at XingWang Cafe!

we went to Eevann's Place for NBA (: ryan fell asleep.   * DANG

♥I LOVE LION KING I LOVE RYAN KING I LOVE IMBA VANN ♥

my weird way of saying

yes i am weird and i am proud of it.
its kind of a 'sensitive' word to me.
i get it a lot from people. ohwells i think i am unique. hehs

working life isn't as fasinating as slacking life.
i miss staying up late and waking up late and play all day.
the only thing that keeps me motivated is to see anna everyday.
i won't be sick of her. i love spending time with her. i know that, she knows that and we all know that.
i miss siangying too! she's my bestfriend and she started her working life too.
i will meet her here and then, but she won't tell me when will she be going Vietnam.
That's kinda sad right?   =(
imagine sying tweet me suddenly!'' hey I am in Vietnam now. heehee''
arghh..this sounds so real. dammit

recently, i've been searching.
searching for something.
i guess i'm searching for the right path i should be heading.
be it love, friendship or work.
i'm saying it in general.

hey friends thank you so much.
i know i'm falling. i know how hard you all tried to prevent my fall.
because you two know how hard i will fall and i am gonna hurt so damn badly.
i think i can handle this btw. i am not that weak.. hehs

''If you walk out on me without a reason, don't come back with an excuse.''
i saw this quote on twitter. its so damn true.
why hold on to somebody who abandon you.it clearly shows that you are worthless to him. he doesn't know how to cherish you, he's not fit to. find someone who is worthy next time round. (:

geelaa :D

lovely days

hello bloggy! i miss you =D

i love my saturday and sunday :)
Friday after i end my work, i went to meet Yans. Ryan and Yan for Sanctum. Movie was great! I teared. Weak Ryan he din even noe whether I'm sneezing or crying. We ate dinner at ThiongBahru and went back to Kovan. Ryan was caring that day he bought me liangteh. I seriously think he wanna see me suffer because liangteh was bitter, more bitter than bittergourd! SIGH how i wished it was some other drink, if i can't finish i can pass it on to Ryan. I asked Ryan to help me drink but he was like NO den i will be sick as well! We had a dessert marathon , went dessert story and ice edge cafe.

thx ryan for tt blur foto

We apent time together all the way till 330am! We waited for eevann to come back and went for Max breakfast. Wonder what and how we managed to spend tt much of time together? We spend hours talking and walking, hanged around at old minton rise and spent time at the voide deck to siam mosquito! AWW we sang song together. I was so happy. :D first official singing with ryan.. complete song! just a dream and need you now. heehee i guess we were really bored. Ryan was so nice he endured his tummyache. I asked him to go back to use his toilet and I'll be fine right here but he said how can I leave you here? Ryan's a sweet guy isnt it. hahahah. eevann came and drove us to MAC, on the way to Mac we were discussing ehh what of Mac breakfast starts at 5 ? R we gonna wait? hahhahs both ryan eevann looked so CUI.

SATURDAY
i woke up at like 2pm. lol knocked out after i reached home. Went dinner with family had pepper crab! whoohoo. sying asked me to meet her but i said i was tired . however i went to meet ryan at 11plus for pingpong. he said he wanna win me to win back his honour? OH failed.. because we almost got complained. so we fled back to our maplewood area before any police come arresting us. We actually met each other on skype and watch OP together. we watch like 6 ep together? hehs i'm proud of us. ryan lousy ehh he can't rmb some parts of OP. he shud REwatch! so we slept at around 4plus. LOL

SUNDAY
woke up at 1240 and ryan woke up at 1248. hahaha i was earlier! i got nothin to do so ryan suggested go walk walk before his training. However, it rained. so he did not go for bball. poor ryan, he brought all his stuff for nothing. We went to arcade and popular to kill time . Watched HOP, i srsly dun like rabbits hare or bunnies wadeva. BUT nice funny show. not bad.. hahah! had dinner at texas chicken and we walked bk home tgt. I walked ryan back today (: gonna work tml. sigh*


geelaa :D

像孩子的你

在我眼里你就像个小孩，
一个没有心机的大男生。

对任何事情都充满热情，
对任何困难都充满斗志。

最喜欢看你认真的时候，
也喜欢看你懊恼的时候。

每当开心时想和你分享，
每当难过时想让你分担。

曾以为我不需要你来陪，
现今却想天天环绕着你。

荡在我心中的一些纠结，
何时能够变化成平常心。

我期待着可以和你回到从前，
回到原点，回到半年前的我。

-不能说的秘密-

(: geelaa

心有点痛

我的心偶尔会痛，
隐隐作痛。

不知道什么时候开始有这个症状，
是当你不在我身边的时候？
还是你在我面前而我感觉不到你的存在。

恋爱换来失恋
真爱换来无情
付出换来愚昧

心好痛，
有时候不能够呼吸。
人类真是脆弱啊。

看着他让我想起初恋。
听着他的故事，
仿佛看见了自己的倒影。
还没说完的故事，
我已知道结局。
淡淡的感伤，
莫名的气愤。
眼泪不知不觉掉了下来。

想要坚强地往前走，
但好困难，几乎走不动。
心像是被开了一枪，
也没有应该心跳的理由。
希望时间能冲淡心灵受到的创伤。

加油，孩子。