习惯就好

可能我已经习惯现在的生活，

全心全意想要投入这份工作。

利用工作逃避现实生活和你，

其实这感觉很不赖，至少我没有空胡思乱想。

对我而言，

我们已经和以前不同了。

对你而言，

我们也已不过如此罢了。

从相识到现在，

我一直相信你始终是最棒的。

至今，我依然觉得你很完美。

没有你的日子真的不好过，

看见你过得还挺开心的。

说真心为你开心是有一点假，

心里存有一些不甘心是真的。

或许我没有你想象中的那么好，善良。

对你，还想有那么一些些自私的占有。

这是很不好的习惯，我该把你戒掉。

没有你我还是我，

我不想连爱自己的资格都失去了。

在找回‘我们’之前，我不想迷失自己。

希望能够回到原点，从陌生人开始做起。

再见了，流川风

): 怪胎

a note to angela

Rolling away from someone you love, doesn't necessarily mean you won't be back.
Pretending feelings aren't there doesn't make them go away too.


woah. i'm starting work tomorrow. new chapter of life gonna begin! i'm lookin forward to it and yes i have a little fear in me.


my 4besties
siangying is still in Vietnam working, anna will be striving hard to be her air stewardess.
eevann gonna start his university soon, ryan will be moving away nxt month.
i simply miss you all. yes ALL of you ):
especially ryan.. HAHAHA no more LAS.G? no right. its just a label, it aint important. we'll still be together as a gang. i'll master roller blade soon. (: never give up is your slogan, I got it when i saw you running and trying to make our kite fly up to the sky! kinda hilarious. and i miss those silly times.


To Angela.
i'm pretty sure you've grown up a little. i'm proud of you. Yes you can't control emotions but you're capable of controlling your actions and attitude. Ohwells. its tough but this is how it should be. Part of growing up aint easy, nobody said it gonna be easy. New challenge? i'll take it like a man. hahha just like roller blading. one day i wouldn't need to hold on to any railings. 




imy a lot a lot~


=(
geelaatok

612 PLANET

你看过法国作家圣埃克苏佩里的<<小王子>>吗?
612星球就是小王子住的地方，那里会发生什么事？蟒蛇吞食大象？小王子爱上玫瑰花？

在现实生活中，难免会爱上错的人。如果爱上一个人可以精心策划那就不是爱了，因为爱上一个人是不知不觉爱上的。你根本没有任何的心理准备或防备。你或许可以选择隐藏你的情感，但是喜欢就是喜欢不要有所逃避。喜欢一个人并没有错，错的是在爱上错的人。接下来是SHE的一首歌，想和大家分享。


        滿園玫瑰　我以爲　找到我那一朵
認真愛了　卻狠狠　刺傷我的雙手
責備甚麼人也沒有用
玫瑰都紅　難免看錯

         望著天空　愛是否　活在童話裡頭
小王子說　有些事　流浪過才會懂
原來每顆心都有個洞
找不到真愛　會一直寂寞

         我但願有一個人　在等我
在屬於我的612星球
好讓我　忍著痛　也願意往下走
不快樂至少　要有夢

         一定會有一個人　在等我
無條件擁抱著我的所有
相遇前　我還要　翻越多少山丘
花別謝太快　請你等等我

         擦乾眼淚　一個人　漂流在這宇宙
小王子說　愛一定　開在某個角落

         路上相愛的人那麼多
我會幸福嗎　在甚麼時候

         我但願有一個人　在等我
在屬於我的612星球
         好讓我　忍著痛　也願意往下走
不快樂至少　要有夢

         一定會有一個人　在等我　
無條件擁抱著我的所有
        相遇前　我還要　翻越多少山丘
花別謝太快　請你等等我

         我但願有一個人　在等我
在屬於我的612星球
         好讓我　忍著痛　也願意往下走
不快樂至少　要有夢

         一定會有一個人　在等我　
無條件擁抱著我的所有
        相遇前　我還要　翻越多少山丘
花別謝太快　請你等等我

angela

23:32

''I guess you could say I'm cautious, or a coward.''

11.32 PM Of 23 May 2011

i've decided to free myself from all these unhappiness. i've been suffocating for the past 5weeks and i seriously think that i might go insane one day. its like your emotions taking over control of your mind. you just can't think properly and can't function well. i mean literally can't function well, losing appitite; losing smiley face and can't focus well on what is actually good for you.

i thought i was strong enough to fix it myself. i thought everything will be back to normal, but its just impossible. its like i am not so ''logical'' anymore, thus making me feel like a mood-swing woman. i believed i have several ''victims'' that were affected by it. i'm totally apologetic about it.

hey, i'm aware that its affecting our friendship somehow. and i totally hate it. why am i so vulnerable in controlling my emotions. i don't know what is the best solution to solve this difficult situation. i guess being honest is the only way to free myself and spare you from all these bullshit you're getting from me.

i definitely have a lot to tell you, you're my good friend. its just ironic when you're the main cause and i can't turn into you and this sucks ): after 5 weeks of torture, i'm glad i took this step and make an effort to save our friendship. i would be greatly appreciate you if you intend to do your part as a friend!

give me time and we'll be back to normal. i believe i can overcome this. few years down the road, i will be thinking WHAT THE HELL was i thinking at that point of time? and by then, we both will be laughing at it together. hahaha..

:) happy lalala

我要快乐

No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change.


我想要快乐但是心如刀割，
我想要梦想但是不切实际。


我想要自由但是谈何容易。
我想要叛逆但是力不从心。


很多时候我想要告诉自己，
坚强，坚定是可以克服的。
认认真真面对自己的时候，
才发现这两个字眼好困难。


没有人告诉面临困境的我，
怎么继续往前勇敢的前进。
一个人的时候是该成长了，
必须成为一个独立的勇士。


勇士的责任是保护自己的心，
不准让任何人摧毁，糟蹋。
没有允许是不能有任何人进出的。
勇士阿，勇士阿，
请你要捍卫好这脆弱的小心灵，
不让她有任何的伤害。


it's my heart that i am protecting. i'm a little warrior, i'm strong and mighty! i believe in myself like how my besties do. LOVE you babes.

a note to me.

he told me, i purposely left you for a few days and seems that you're getting stronger.
indeed i became stronger but i do feel vulnerable at times.
i can say that i am perfectly fine when i'm not.
i once said its my heart that i am protecting,
somehow i feel that i may not have the ability to do so.
its not up to one to decide,
to keep it or give it away.

June is coming,
a new chapter of life will begin.
A new month , a new start.
all the best angela.

i guess i have to fight it all by myself.
i started this, i need to end this.


angela

hey there

what can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
and all that you touch tumbles down.