Confessions

Hello Blog, I know I just blogged but I need to write this down.

Confessions
ohmygod. Life is so unpredictable. When bestfriends fall for each other its a totally wrong thing. What would you do if your good friend tell you they like you or you sense that coming?you choose to ignore or act blur all the way? I guess this friendship will just end. Unless these two have feelings for each other too.That's like a super happy picture right? Your bestfriend knows you so well and you 2 are a couple. Too bad anna's a girl. Sying's attached.I am thankful that he didn't say anything even before I left. I was chatting with A and he finally asked me something that i waited for like hmm several months. He asked me do you know I like you? Do you like me back then? I told him yes i like you as a friend. I asked him why do you even like me? I sucks at table tennis. He said cuz you're a nice girl. Since I wont be meeting him anyways I asked further why didnt you tell me at that point of time? He said he was shy and he was afraid . Afraid of rejections and afraid of knowing the fact that I am attached( i am not!). He's funny, innocent. A pretty nice guy but not my type.


Recently, he found out that my eyecandy R. He asked me so you like R? I said yep i do. He questioned me why didnt you tell him? I said there's no way I'm gonna tell him. He's my friend and he will always be. Morever I'm not staying there forever. Confession makes people look stupid. A told me R is back from his country and he will tell him that I like him. Oh please don't. Its so weird. I mean I am not even sure whether he remember me? My table-tennis friend. I'm glad that A is still pretty concern about me even though i broke his heart.


Its all about confessing.Are you game? I still remembered when A gave me a friendship band and I lost it during badminton. Late at night, I dragged XF down to accompany me find that friendship band. Its like cold winter and I insisted in finding that. I dont like him I swear, I just don't want to show him that I don't care about him.I appreciate him as my friend. A super special friend.There's another night when I told him I wanna go to C's room. I guess he knows C's a pervert too so he rushed down to accomapany me. I admit that I was kind of sure that he will be down, so I'm not afraid. hahahas. I sensed that he liked me a little and I was awkward everytime I see him. We went on a double date,I supposed so. I dragged XF along and asked her for help. I asked XF to stick close to me wherever I go. She did her part and I was safe and sound. LOL. A was staring at her throughout the lunch, and even after lunch. A didnt get to talk to me except for the ''paying for me drama'' at PALA. I'm sorry A, I felt uncomfortable at that point of time. You need not pay for me, you're just my friend. Sorry if i did things to mislead you. BUT i couldnt bring myself to tell you hey friend I don't like you when you never even confess. That's super dumb, What if you don't like me, I will make a fool out of myself isnt it. That's so not LEO. yeah my cool horoscope.


I'm pretty glad that you confessed to me online when I'm back in SG. Even if you say you miss me,I won't feel weird,I think that's a valid reason. I do miss you guys too. Especially R.


I've met a lot of guys there.Good ones and bad ones. I think I almost fell in love with the bad one. I admit my heart skipped a little when he kissed me on the cheek. Srsly, I know him for one day. That's epic. He asked why havent we met or know each other better before ? I said you looked kinda fierce though. He laughed. We spent our night watching videos and chatting. He gave me his sexy photo with his address and autograph. He's a nice flirty guy. lol I'll never forget him. I remembered I misunderstood him for stealing my mp3.He was upset, I felt terrible and went to knock his door and apologised.There's no way I could express my feelings at that point of time. I wanna keep this friendship, I hugged him on my own accord. He forgave me. We are still SKYPE friends alright. His choice of words are pretty much the same. He's always flirting -.- I remembered I skyped with him and I was lying on my bed. He said hey girl nice bedsheets. WTH.. hahahs! He has his flirty side but I believe he's a man of kind heart. When we took our very last photo with Aliya I cried, he pat on my shoulder and said don't cry. Pretty girls don't cry, he passed me a tissue and I smiled and said yes I am not crying. When Aibek was playing around with XF's weighing scale, he forced us to weigh ourselves. He dragged us but we were reluctant. I looked at Bek, I don't want. I really don't want. He was afraid that i burst into tears again, so he looked at Aibek fiercely and said leave them alone. I was touched ! lol. He's like the man. That's my impression of him. (: cool sexy bad guy. He may be flirty but i believe his love for his girlfriend.


I feel that confession is not really impotant afterall. If you like the person and if its wiser for you not to say then be it.Friendship will definitley last longer than a relationship. However, if two bestfriends really understand each other that well.Why not take a risk? OK a mere suggestion. I shall sleep real soon! meeting cousin tmr.

P.S: I miss my life in wuhan, hostel life with international students.
:D geelaa