Hello Blog, I know I just blogged but I need to write this down.
Confessions
ohmygod. Life is so unpredictable. When bestfriends fall for each other its a totally wrong thing. What would you do if your good friend tell you they like you or you sense that coming?you choose to ignore or act blur all the way? I guess this friendship will just end. Unless these two have feelings for each other too.That's like a super happy picture right? Your bestfriend knows you so well and you 2 are a couple. Too bad anna's a girl. Sying's attached.I am thankful that he didn't say anything even before I left. I was chatting with A and he finally asked me something that i waited for like hmm several months. He asked me do you know I like you? Do you like me back then? I told him yes i like you as a friend. I asked him why do you even like me? I sucks at table tennis. He said cuz you're a nice girl. Since I wont be meeting him anyways I asked further why didnt you tell me at that point of time? He said he was shy and he was afraid . Afraid of rejections and afraid of knowing the fact that I am attached( i am not!). He's funny, innocent. A pretty nice guy but not my type.
Recently, he found out that my eyecandy R. He asked me so you like R? I said yep i do. He questioned me why didnt you tell him? I said there's no way I'm gonna tell him. He's my friend and he will always be. Morever I'm not staying there forever. Confession makes people look stupid. A told me R is back from his country and he will tell him that I like him. Oh please don't. Its so weird. I mean I am not even sure whether he remember me? My table-tennis friend. I'm glad that A is still pretty concern about me even though i broke his heart.
Its all about confessing.Are you game? I still remembered when A gave me a friendship band and I lost it during badminton. Late at night, I dragged XF down to accompany me find that friendship band. Its like cold winter and I insisted in finding that. I dont like him I swear, I just don't want to show him that I don't care about him.I appreciate him as my friend. A super special friend.There's another night when I told him I wanna go to C's room. I guess he knows C's a pervert too so he rushed down to accomapany me. I admit that I was kind of sure that he will be down, so I'm not afraid. hahahas. I sensed that he liked me a little and I was awkward everytime I see him. We went on a double date,I supposed so. I dragged XF along and asked her for help. I asked XF to stick close to me wherever I go. She did her part and I was safe and sound. LOL. A was staring at her throughout the lunch, and even after lunch. A didnt get to talk to me except for the ''paying for me drama'' at PALA. I'm sorry A, I felt uncomfortable at that point of time. You need not pay for me, you're just my friend. Sorry if i did things to mislead you. BUT i couldnt bring myself to tell you hey friend I don't like you when you never even confess. That's super dumb, What if you don't like me, I will make a fool out of myself isnt it. That's so not LEO. yeah my cool horoscope.
I'm pretty glad that you confessed to me online when I'm back in SG. Even if you say you miss me,I won't feel weird,I think that's a valid reason. I do miss you guys too. Especially R.
I've met a lot of guys there.Good ones and bad ones. I think I almost fell in love with the bad one. I admit my heart skipped a little when he kissed me on the cheek. Srsly, I know him for one day. That's epic. He asked why havent we met or know each other better before ? I said you looked kinda fierce though. He laughed. We spent our night watching videos and chatting. He gave me his sexy photo with his address and autograph. He's a nice flirty guy. lol I'll never forget him. I remembered I misunderstood him for stealing my mp3.He was upset, I felt terrible and went to knock his door and apologised.There's no way I could express my feelings at that point of time. I wanna keep this friendship, I hugged him on my own accord. He forgave me. We are still SKYPE friends alright. His choice of words are pretty much the same. He's always flirting -.- I remembered I skyped with him and I was lying on my bed. He said hey girl nice bedsheets. WTH.. hahahs! He has his flirty side but I believe he's a man of kind heart. When we took our very last photo with Aliya I cried, he pat on my shoulder and said don't cry. Pretty girls don't cry, he passed me a tissue and I smiled and said yes I am not crying. When Aibek was playing around with XF's weighing scale, he forced us to weigh ourselves. He dragged us but we were reluctant. I looked at Bek, I don't want. I really don't want. He was afraid that i burst into tears again, so he looked at Aibek fiercely and said leave them alone. I was touched ! lol. He's like the man. That's my impression of him. (: cool sexy bad guy. He may be flirty but i believe his love for his girlfriend.
I feel that confession is not really impotant afterall. If you like the person and if its wiser for you not to say then be it.Friendship will definitley last longer than a relationship. However, if two bestfriends really understand each other that well.Why not take a risk? OK a mere suggestion. I shall sleep real soon! meeting cousin tmr.
P.S: I miss my life in wuhan, hostel life with international students.
:D geelaa
Monday, 28 February 2011
Bestfriend Crisis: Losing Ryan
I've been nua-ing at home whole day. Yes on bed with my lappy watching random videos cause I already watched the very recent Glee and GossipGirls Ep. After lunch,i continued dealing with how to make my blog's song play automatically. That's very sad because I haven't figure that out yet. 1plus anna told me she's home, wow efficient indeed. haahhs after awhile she went offline I guess she went to sleep. Ryan came online too, I told him hey Ryan I dreamt of me and you eating tauhuay ytd. Surprisingly, he asked wanna tauhuay? I supposed he has to chiong his notes. I went to watch 态度 again. This basketball show never fails to inspire me, and again i teared after watching. I introduced Ryan but i realised there's no english sub. He didnt watch anyways, he was DOTA-ing.
After my show, i went to sleep. Heehees! I do feel tired after long hours of eye-contact with my tiny screen. Msn Ryan asked what time shall we meet. As usual, no conclusion.. HaHaHa, he suggested we'll decide again after our nap. Hmm.. anna and eevann came along! YaY! I was thinking there's a high possibility that anna wont come. eevann that not so cute guy made us wait,so anna waited for 30mins. I so sorry anna, not our fault. Its not-so cute eevann's fault. So eevann treated us tauhuay. N he didnt even eat, he was too full after HollandV's xiaolongbao. Haiix. He was too tired to play blind mice too. ARGH.. eevann seah i will call u at 4am wake u up and please call Ryan at 530am. ((:
After dessert, we accompanied eevann to DBS to withdraw money. N when 113 came eevann left. :( I srsly dont wanna board that bus. So i stay still at the bustop, thinking i should accompany anna to wait for her bus. 112 bus uncle is really on time, 112 reached right after 113 left. I looked at anna,hey i accompany you back. Ryan looked so lost. He went up the bus with us. I guess he hates me now. This is just the start of the hating part.HaHa. we accompanied anna back, stayed awhile at her void-deck and chiong for the last 113.I was super full and i wanna walk home very badly.Ryan looked super tired and he was hoping that the last bus is still available. I want it otherwise, if there's no 113 we could walk home burn some calories. Second reason that Ryan might hate me.
On the bus journey, Ryan was tired. He didnt talk a lot. I was talking non-stop as usual. Telling him I will create a blog for him since I am bored. I will name is LDP,ilovegreen,tangyuan,slamdunk or wadeva. He just laughed but I don think he like the idea. He finds it lame. Oh well. I will still do it if I am free. rykawa.blogspot.com not a bad idea right? When we reached Kovan's bustop i asked him again,'Can we walk from here?Are you that tired? Pls.. we walk back..? hahahs' Smart Ryan said let's play Scissors Paper Stone!winner will have the say. I totally forgotten that he knows exactly what is my pattern of playing. -.- yea i lost the game, we din walk. When we reach LAS I insisted of walking him back, and he insisted no i should go home first. I really dont wanna go home that early, alright its 12plus not very early. So we said byebye to each other at MY void-deck. I headed to his place, and he followed behind. He was like huh so you going back after you walk me home? I said yup. We said byebye again and I walked the long-way back.I srsly wanted to sit at the park.It was so tempting, the cooling breeze,pretty lights of the park and stray cats fighting. In the end, I went home. I missed Ryan's text. He asked if I reached home bo liao friend -.- before I reply he called and asked where am I. I lied to him I was still sitting at the park. He asked me to go home. I said I dowan. Then I told him okay dont need to come down I'm going back now (i'm alr at home). He asked are you sure, I said yes very sure, please dont come down. After awhile, Ryan texted me wahlao bluff me. I don't know if he went down the park hopefully not. :/ sorry ryan . But I did ask him not to come down! SEE.. Ryan hates me now and he won't play LOG-HOP with me anymore. Not even going to play blind mice or stupid aeroplane chess with me anymore. :(
SORRY RYAN. i will think of a creative name for your new blog, accept it as my apology. ((:
P.S don't hate me please.. I know you are a nice person.
XOXO geelaa
After my show, i went to sleep. Heehees! I do feel tired after long hours of eye-contact with my tiny screen. Msn Ryan asked what time shall we meet. As usual, no conclusion.. HaHaHa, he suggested we'll decide again after our nap. Hmm.. anna and eevann came along! YaY! I was thinking there's a high possibility that anna wont come. eevann that not so cute guy made us wait,so anna waited for 30mins. I so sorry anna, not our fault. Its not-so cute eevann's fault. So eevann treated us tauhuay. N he didnt even eat, he was too full after HollandV's xiaolongbao. Haiix. He was too tired to play blind mice too. ARGH.. eevann seah i will call u at 4am wake u up and please call Ryan at 530am. ((:
After dessert, we accompanied eevann to DBS to withdraw money. N when 113 came eevann left. :( I srsly dont wanna board that bus. So i stay still at the bustop, thinking i should accompany anna to wait for her bus. 112 bus uncle is really on time, 112 reached right after 113 left. I looked at anna,hey i accompany you back. Ryan looked so lost. He went up the bus with us. I guess he hates me now. This is just the start of the hating part.HaHa. we accompanied anna back, stayed awhile at her void-deck and chiong for the last 113.I was super full and i wanna walk home very badly.Ryan looked super tired and he was hoping that the last bus is still available. I want it otherwise, if there's no 113 we could walk home burn some calories. Second reason that Ryan might hate me.
On the bus journey, Ryan was tired. He didnt talk a lot. I was talking non-stop as usual. Telling him I will create a blog for him since I am bored. I will name is LDP,ilovegreen,tangyuan,slamdunk or wadeva. He just laughed but I don think he like the idea. He finds it lame. Oh well. I will still do it if I am free. rykawa.blogspot.com not a bad idea right? When we reached Kovan's bustop i asked him again,'Can we walk from here?Are you that tired? Pls.. we walk back..? hahahs' Smart Ryan said let's play Scissors Paper Stone!winner will have the say. I totally forgotten that he knows exactly what is my pattern of playing. -.- yea i lost the game, we din walk. When we reach LAS I insisted of walking him back, and he insisted no i should go home first. I really dont wanna go home that early, alright its 12plus not very early. So we said byebye to each other at MY void-deck. I headed to his place, and he followed behind. He was like huh so you going back after you walk me home? I said yup. We said byebye again and I walked the long-way back.I srsly wanted to sit at the park.It was so tempting, the cooling breeze,pretty lights of the park and stray cats fighting. In the end, I went home. I missed Ryan's text. He asked if I reached home bo liao friend -.- before I reply he called and asked where am I. I lied to him I was still sitting at the park. He asked me to go home. I said I dowan. Then I told him okay dont need to come down I'm going back now (i'm alr at home). He asked are you sure, I said yes very sure, please dont come down. After awhile, Ryan texted me wahlao bluff me. I don't know if he went down the park hopefully not. :/ sorry ryan . But I did ask him not to come down! SEE.. Ryan hates me now and he won't play LOG-HOP with me anymore. Not even going to play blind mice or stupid aeroplane chess with me anymore. :(
SORRY RYAN. i will think of a creative name for your new blog, accept it as my apology. ((:
P.S don't hate me please.. I know you are a nice person.
XOXO geelaa
Sunday, 27 February 2011
人并非十全十美
人类活在这个世界上是为了什么？
应该是‘受罪’吧，因为人并不完美。
不相信人类是圣人，没有做错事过。
反而觉得人类是虚伪的，明知道自己做错事却死不承认。
想尽办法遮掩自己的弱点或错误，
你我都包括在内。
是啊，虚伪懦弱是我们的本性
只是要看我们如何掩饰。
掩饰好的话你就是没呢么遭的人，
相对的你也就是最虚假的人。
不用在乎别人的眼光，
追寻自己的生活是很不错。
但又有几个人办得到，
成功的人我以你们为荣。
失败的人我觉得你们也没错，
我和你一起加油。
试着脱离他人的眼光，
走出自己的道路。
别因为自己的不完美而失落，
要因为自己的不完美而感恩。
因为不完美才能给我们理由犯错。
太完美的人，不是人，是神。
((: 安琪拉
应该是‘受罪’吧，因为人并不完美。
不相信人类是圣人，没有做错事过。
反而觉得人类是虚伪的，明知道自己做错事却死不承认。
想尽办法遮掩自己的弱点或错误，
你我都包括在内。
是啊，虚伪懦弱是我们的本性
只是要看我们如何掩饰。
掩饰好的话你就是没呢么遭的人，
相对的你也就是最虚假的人。
不用在乎别人的眼光，
追寻自己的生活是很不错。
但又有几个人办得到，
成功的人我以你们为荣。
失败的人我觉得你们也没错，
我和你一起加油。
试着脱离他人的眼光，
走出自己的道路。
别因为自己的不完美而失落，
要因为自己的不完美而感恩。
因为不完美才能给我们理由犯错。
太完美的人，不是人，是神。
((: 安琪拉
HELLO
i guess i created this blog because of boredom.
i’ve been lazing around at home. not really productive, but i am proud of myself. i did CHIONG all my fav shows.
hmm.. sometimes in the day i would question myself. ”Angela is it a wise idea to waste your time at home?”
i answered myself twice.
1.”YES you are. You’re working in April. I mean srsly working and you are staying at home? You are not even going to take your driving license, or rather sign up? Lazy Girl!”
2.”NO of course not, you are helping yourself by not spending $.Watching videos sounds nothing wrong at all. By watching videos, I think they did cheer you up a little, don’t you think so?”
Cousin Irene will be back on tues. I wanna see her in good shape and good mood. I love my cousin and i miss her.My pretty niece will be coming too i guess. Hehs. I will take photos with her, okay that’s my wish. I’ll publish it on facebook right away, that;s my goal.
My brother Big J is unhappy. I wanna make him happy, but I can’t. because this sister sucks. i don’t know how to talk to him or rather don’t dare to talk to him. He’s like a scary monster when he is in bad mood. Goodluck to anna if you’re still proceeding our forfeit.
Lastly, ryan anna eevann i miss u all!
had so much fun ytd when we were playing fire sparklers. Although Ryan dislike it.. i still think we were kinda cute when we hold on to those little sticks of light (: meet up soon bestfriends. eevann thanks for introducing sucha friendly girl, rest assured i won’t turn into a les. eevann pls honour your word by asking a girl’s number during our nxt outing. admit it, you lost our bet just now when ryan DIDNT put down the fonecall within 15secs. Oh, Ryan i didnt mean it when i said i hope your legs break. Just a Joke. Just Kiddin. hehehe. anna you’re e best! MUACKZ
P.S hi chocolate. i wish i could be your side. text me when/if you need me i’ll be right there. It’ll soon be over. love ya lots! (:
<3 geelaa
i’ve been lazing around at home. not really productive, but i am proud of myself. i did CHIONG all my fav shows.
hmm.. sometimes in the day i would question myself. ”Angela is it a wise idea to waste your time at home?”
i answered myself twice.
1.”YES you are. You’re working in April. I mean srsly working and you are staying at home? You are not even going to take your driving license, or rather sign up? Lazy Girl!”
2.”NO of course not, you are helping yourself by not spending $.Watching videos sounds nothing wrong at all. By watching videos, I think they did cheer you up a little, don’t you think so?”
Cousin Irene will be back on tues. I wanna see her in good shape and good mood. I love my cousin and i miss her.My pretty niece will be coming too i guess. Hehs. I will take photos with her, okay that’s my wish. I’ll publish it on facebook right away, that;s my goal.
My brother Big J is unhappy. I wanna make him happy, but I can’t. because this sister sucks. i don’t know how to talk to him or rather don’t dare to talk to him. He’s like a scary monster when he is in bad mood. Goodluck to anna if you’re still proceeding our forfeit.
Lastly, ryan anna eevann i miss u all!
had so much fun ytd when we were playing fire sparklers. Although Ryan dislike it.. i still think we were kinda cute when we hold on to those little sticks of light (: meet up soon bestfriends. eevann thanks for introducing sucha friendly girl, rest assured i won’t turn into a les. eevann pls honour your word by asking a girl’s number during our nxt outing. admit it, you lost our bet just now when ryan DIDNT put down the fonecall within 15secs. Oh, Ryan i didnt mean it when i said i hope your legs break. Just a Joke. Just Kiddin. hehehe. anna you’re e best! MUACKZP.S hi chocolate. i wish i could be your side. text me when/if you need me i’ll be right there. It’ll soon be over. love ya lots! (:
<3 geelaa
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